I just finished the book "Helter Skelter" which is one of the craziest, in some ways scariest, and one of the most interesting books I've ever read. It's definitely not for everyone because it's very hard to swallow but its really well written, sometimes like a crime scene drama, sometimes like a courtroom drama. Like I said, its a really bizarre true story that probably many people don't want to know, but it's a crazy account of how wayward the human mind can go, and how everyone has such an innate desire to belong somewhere, even the farthest outcasts look for a community and that was the great tragedy of this story. That these people found no other place to feel a sense of belonging, and that desire was deeply betrayed. Anyways, don't go out and read it right away, lest you believe that Jon Rand is a deeply disturbed psycho, but it a story of the extreme end of mankind and I was intrigued.
Anyways, after that I need to read a more fluffy book to clear my mind of the density of what I just read. Living in a car affords me a lot of reading time which I love. (suggestions for more books to read are good by the way). I also been listening to a lot of podcasts by Erwin McManus about actively pursuing the things that you desire to do in life, rather than writing them off as too far fetched, and this really reinforces the motivation of this living in a car experience. The closer I get to graduation the more this little fear creeps up in the back of my mind that I'm going to end up being bound and shackled to a paycheck from a means-to-an-end job that I either hate or am bored with. So I guess the point of this car experience is to get myself outside the typical, expected routine of life and remind myself that life is actually incredibly amazing and new and mysterious and fleeting and I don't want to be lulled to sleep by the everyday routine. So this car experience eliminates that expected routine, making spontaneous demands on my day to day life that I have to constantly examine and adjust and discover. Its more like a "pinch me" experience where I'm trying to wake myself up so I really go after life and change the rhythm of living.
Sorry this sounds all ideological and ridiculous but I had a small bout with insomnia tonight so my thinking is off kilter but I think this ultimately explains the reason why I wake up every morning and roll out of the side door of a Toyota 4runner despite awkward stares of the people walking by on their way to class.
Also its cold enough now that the outdoors serves as a natural refrigerator so I have been buying lunch meat and keeping it on the roof of the forerunner. It's a nice luxury.
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Cornerstone Church, Francis Chan's church, has some really good podcasts...Grab the mission of the church and the purpose of the church ones for sure.
The class I just finished took a look at people from a neat perspective and was helpful in understanding the people written about in Helter Skelter...The text book was Family Evaluation, but it's hugely thick...you could probably get a good idea about what we talked about by reading "Becoming a Healthier Pastor"
Stay warm!
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